Checking in, because I've set up numerous blogs, journals, reminders, systems, calendars, etc. etc. etc. to keep myself on track and have failed because I wasn't consistent. So I believe I need to force myself to come in here and post, even when I'm busy, even when I don't feel like it, and even when I don't believe I have anything to say.
It occurred to me this morning (for the millionth time) that there sure are a lot of things that I'm supposed to be doing that would improve my health. Every time some genius comes up with the perfect suggestion in the past, thinking (bless their heart) that they're the first one to propose this novel idea to me, they believe that it's just a tiny thing, just incorporate this little thing into my life, and I'll reap great benefits.
The problem is, they're right. The problem is, there are a million of them. If I did everything I'm supposed to, I'd have to quit my job, because I wouldn't have time to work.
Here are the things I'm supposed to do, as suggested by actual doctors, nutritionists, alternative medicine practitioners, and well-meaning friends and family:
- Take berberine twice a day (per my doctor). The problem is, I take my medications in the morning. That's it. I don't remember to take them any other time of day. I've set up a pill station in my bedroom, but do you think that works? No.
- Take iron, but not within a few hours as other medicines. Again, I take my medications in the morning. I take atenolol and thyroid meds first thing, wait 15 minutes, and then have breakfast. Then I'm on with my day. There are more problems with taking iron pills, but I won't go into them now.
- Stretch. I started going to a physiotherapist, and he gave me some very easy stretches to do. I can't remember why they didn't work out in my life. I can't do floor stretches, the chair in my stretching area is too low, there's no other place in the house to do stretches, or so I believe. But I'm sure I could make it work into my life.
- Plan and prep for my meals. Everyone throws this nonsense at me. I'm 61 years old for fuck's sake. I know to plan my meals, and I do plan my meals. And then I get the groceries, and then I prep. And then at mealtime, I consider what I've planned and prepped, and it's "meh." So I make something yummier or order out. So then, back to the drawing board, determined to make yummy food for myself. And then at mealtime, it's not something that sounds good, or I get an opportunity to eat out with friends, or the dish didn't turn out that well. And I'm out of steam, and no longer interested in screwing around in the kitching planning and prepping meals. A few months go by. And I say to myself "I need to eat more healthily. I should plan and prep my meals." And it begins again.
- Walk. I have bad balance issues. Plus, my neuropathy messes with my balance too. So I can only walk outside half of the year. (I'm in a cold country.) I try to walk indoors at work -- I work on a campus. But at work, I always have so many deadlines and so much work to do that I keep putting it off. It's not that I don't do it. I don't do it YET. And then YET becomes not at all.
- Go to the gym. We have a gym on campus! I used to go regularly. But because of my neuropathy and balance issues, and extreme lack of mobility (I mean extreme. I can't even sit upright in a dentist's chair with my legs extended.) it takes me about 10 minutes in the locker room to change, and then another 15 to change back, and there's 25 minutes gone out of my life. That's about three quarters of the time I have available to go to the gym in the first place. By the time you add in the walk to and from, that's pretty much an hour. Maybe what I should do is get into the habit of just walking TO the gym, changing clothes, changing back, and walking BACK to the office.
There are so many more things I could add to this list of things I'm supposed to do, but I'm out of time. I have to go to work!
I realize that this just sounds like a whiny list of excuses. I realize that. And believe me, I'm all familiar with the "just excuses" thing, so if you comment on the obvious, you're going to look even more idiotic than I do.
I've been trying to think of excuses as barriers to be dismantled. I went through a phase where I dug down into each excuse, finding solutions for each element of the excuse until there was no more excuse. But that got tedious, and I don't have time or energy for that.
Okay, off to work.
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